will i find my mr right? will i get married to my mr right? will i become a doctor? will i own a mini? will i eventually learn how to drive? will i have a jack russell? will i continue to hate the name russell? will i study in singapore or australia? medicine or law? marry local or overseas? how will my wedding be like? how much will i earn in the future? how many kids will i have? what will i name my kids? when CAN i quit my job? why does my heart hurt? why m i angry? am i not pretty enough? am i too outspoken? why do i hate canto-pop? why are my legs like that? why must my life continue to surprise me? why does the cat i play play me back? mew.
im going to copy these into a book and answer them in the future. haha.
actually i was in a terrible disgusting mood yesterday.
"a little cat had in front of it a large glass bowl containing 2 goldfishes. its whiskers twitched every time a fishy swam past its eye of vision. propping itself onto the table top, the bowl was just the right height - under its paws. the goldfishes unaware of the large predator on the outside, swam happily and without a care - in and out of the cinderella's castle lodged in the centre of their fishy world. goldfish A had an infatuation with cinderella who lived in the castle. "she never lifts a fin" thinks the fish, in complete oblivion to the darkening of the surrounding waters. a little cat to fishys, is a big gigantic monstrosity. claws and teeth do not help. just as the cat was going to get itself into MAJOR fishy business, a larger being comes by and grabs it under its arms and carrying it to the couch to - watch television. the cat gazes longingly at the fishys but has no choice but to lie still in the larger being's arms."
meow.
that was supposed to mean something..but i think i got carried away.
so i guess it doesnt mean anything anymore.
well no matter what kind of life the cat lives. its not going to live like that anymore. its just going to do something less productive in its life and just watch television. after all. food is free. and you do not bite the hand that feeds you.
haha thats not pip btw. i was lazy to upload photos. so this will have to do. pip's got yellow knitted hat. cute!
and pip has won 3 open category competitions, in agility, obedience and disc! yay!
pip rules!
sometimes i forgot to clean up after pip poops and then i get scolded. the game is so remarkably REAL. damn.
anw. some elaboration on my current obsession. i've been wanting a dog since forever. and well since my parents are EXTREMELY hesitant in getting me anything that has 4 legs and a tail that eats and shits.. i have to resort to sad tactics like tamagotchi v 3 and nintendogs. after playing nintendogs..im starting to think that tamagotchi is damn flat and stupid. they are not 3 D and they dont make noise. they BEEP. at least the dogs bark when you open the ds and the whine when you close the ds. man. i feel sad when i leave the ds too long. and i WORRY cos im afraid if i ill-treat my pip she'll run away! yes they run away..
nintendogs are addictive. i have only one dog now.. and boy is it hard to keep. i cant imagine how ppl can have 3 dogs! (max 3 in the game) beagles rule! i started off with a golden retriever. but it was damn STUPID and irritating. and i had to teach the stupid thing 8 times b4 it remembers. and then it runs off. >.< wah lao. btw. the dogs are designed to follow the personalities of real dogs.. so that means golden retrievers are stupid. period.
haha! then i reset and went to german shepherds. eh not bad. but i got bored of its intelligence after a while.. kind of like how the ministry is getting bored of GEPers and thinking hey. lets change our education system AGAIN. which reminds me of what mr desmond was saying about kids nowadays. every class have ADHD! attention deficit hyperactive DOLDRUMS. btw its supposed to be syndrome but im too lazy to change the D to an S. well. there you go. im one too! haha.
hm. i still have to figure out what the heck a music box does in the game. pip seems intrigued by it.
and my mom stole my "why do men fall asleep after sex?" book. HM.
im off to sleep. GO PIP! whaha. i hope to find a beret soon. pip will look SO CUTE IN IT.
..was a bad show. this is better. made me laugh (eh why does my laugh look strange to me?) ..pika... PI! :) btw. i koped this video from darren..thanks DARREN! :)
ok so you pass by this blog and u see the title and you go. OMG. emo. another one.
well yeah. this is an emo post about my sad sad life. so you can go pass on to another blog if you dont want to read it. its about well. my life. presently.
today i went for the interview.. with my dad. and well i heard a lot about Ireland and i want to go. more than i want to go Singapore. well i have nothing much to say except. i made a good impression. but my dad didnt. they like totally clashed and started arguing? wtf. anw. i can get into TCD. it just depends on my commitment. all he has to do is get my commitment. i bet my dad will not pay the deposit. all he did was make me throw my face and make me pek cek today. wah i come home and i took a bath. and then i lay on my bed and cried with my mogu on my face. maro. it was that bad. so i came across as definitely mature and independent enough to go overseas on my own. and well 2 universities picked me. its just that. can you imagine. getting 4 As was my let down. it was why he questioned my commitment. because. i applied to NUS with those grades. he believes that if i go NUS i will drop out of TCD. i was so intent on doing the direct opposite. and go to TCD even if i go NUS. but my dad said.
" what if something happens to me when you are overseas? how will you continue yr education? you must think not only of you whims and fancies but of the possible consequences of going overseas on yr own. will your mom be able to support you on yr own? "
btw thats coming from a guy who suspects he has TB or getting a stroke. when his cholesterol level is way lower than the norm. wah. today was really screwed up man. i like cried for half an hour in embarrassment.
i mean. they force me to apply everywhere. and then he thinks im indecisive. and then questions my commitment. im sorry i let my parents rule my life. its their wallet. its their money. if i had half a million dollars to spend on my education. wherever i want? i would go to TCD. definitely. but no. its not my money.
going overseas and being away from home for 5 years is what i want. im prepared for it. im willing to do so. im willing to stay on my own..rough it out. cook on my own. bake on my own. do my own laundry. i just wish my parents would have more faith in me and trust my strengths. everyone who interviewed me came to the same conclusion.. that im ready to go live on my own. overseas. me. myself. i. my parents think im a joke and laugh at the conclusion. and want me to stay in SG. and follow their rules for the rest of my life.
NO. pls God. i want to go overseas. let me go. free.
